Thoughtful Girlfriend of bordering on stalker

My boyfriend has been away for three 1/2 weeks spending time with his family in Texas. On his return today I was religiously viewing the baa.com website to see the status of his flight. This reminded me of the type of behaviour my Dad would exhibit and it suddenly dawned on me am I being a bit stalkerish? Not that my Dad is stalkeresk this role is reserved for my Nana, who being her only grandchild has an unhealthy obsession with my ever move and word.

I am not the wholesome girlfriend type of girl who easily breezes through the stages of a relationship. I am a novice when it comes to such circumstances and often find myself demonstrating behaviours of a Looney banshee I would never have contemplated when playing the role of singleton. Such in ability to feel comfortable in the role of the ‘perfect’ girlfriend and often playing the boy in the relationship makes me question a lot of my behaviour. Hence the dreading creep from within my gut as to whether I was acting like the caring and considerate girlfriend or the stalker girlfriend who can’t just lay back and play it cool.

I often find myself slightly cringed and embarrassed by my actions when in a relationship. I normally pride myself on independence, coolness around spending time with others and ability to enjoy my own company. When in a relationship this all changes. I should probably note at this point that I have never had a relationship that lasts longer than a month up until now, and often go for guys who I know it can go nowhere with. Maybe this is a protective barrier my subconscious places to make life a lot easier but does it really?

Hmmm, let me contemplate this and I will return to tell you about the hilarity that was – informing my parents and grandparents of the boy I am courting – oh the pain that emanated from my cringing. However looking back it is actually quite funny.

ELx